THE WATCHER

Shock and Awe and Wonder

I have been out of it lately. The distress of Heidi’s cancer has left me in a spiritual wasteland. I swing from hope to despair on a moment’s notice. Things that seemed important two months ago disappeared into a shallow pool of insignificance. What I thought were plans I see now as distractions. I have no control, only hope.

Friends have offered us soul nourishing encouragement through scripture, food, prayer and love. One of my favorite scriptures to meditate on is Psalm 91…”He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty…” I try to focus on what dwelling means to me, what shelter means to me and what rest means to me. I ask God to help me dwell in His shelter and protect my family and give us moments of peace. The remainder of the verse is equally powerful, equally as awe inspiring.

My friend Sandy sent me a link to the song above. It really hit me like a ton of bricks. First of all it is a powerful song, beautifully sung. Second, it started my “mind grapes” to ponder my “church life” journey with Christ. Jesus has taken me from small traditional churches, to mega-churches, to house churches, to no churches. At each juncture, I have shed the baggage of the past and pressed on with Christ. I am guilty of assuming that I have stumbled on the best way to do Church. Looking back I see the consistency of how Christ has journeyed with my adventures in community. My hindsight reveals only beautiful faces, hopeful eyes and giving communities. My journey changed, His didn’t.